Day #1

Today I am thanking God for the gift of life. I am grateful to be alive and be able to experience life in its abundance. I am grateful for the opportunity of waking up each day and going through lifes' paces and its only through God's grace :)

40 days of gratitude challenge

So I have decided to end my year on a positive note and just reflect on my life and give thanks and praise to the Almighty for a wonderful year. I will be posting everyday what I am grateful for and I challenge you to do the same before the year is over.

New found gem!

So here I was browsing through the internet for a meal ideas for tonight and I just bumped into this cookbook that has me all excited. Please visit the link below and be inspired by quick, easy and affordable recipes everyone will love :)


https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/490865454/good-and-cheap

 

 

Daily inspiration

This man is one of the few authors/poets I wish I had met in my lifetime. Over the years I've bumped into a lot more of his quotes, poems and books and my heart can't help but grow fonder every time I read his work.

The journey to self

Before I even go anywhere I am hiding my face in shame for neglecting my gem for so long! I have been on a very turbulent journey of self discovery, trying to find my purpose on this earth and this has been very a painful but fruitful expedition.

I am still on it, going strong and loving every minute of it. I have sooo much to share; I see life in a totally different light than I did. I now listen to that little voice in my head a lot more and am on the right path to my pursuit of utmost happiness.


Aloha and adios, I'll be back soon. I'm in the middle of a very insightful book and will share my review as soon as I'm done.

  

Daily Inspiration

I just bumped into this and I had to share!!!!

Hot oil treatment

I’m one of those girls with 5 strands of wispy hair in her head so I never bothered myself with really taking care of my hair because I always thought that I didn’t have much to handle in that area.

However I made it a resolution this year to take better care of my hair and find out what works for me, and I did just that! I have been a fan of short treated hair for a couple of months so I’m always frequenting the barber and getting a cut and my barber always teases me by saying Mwari haakupe zvese (God will never give you everything).

 

I just recently bought what I now call the little bottle of ‘goodness’ which is hot oil hair repair. This bottle has a wide range of natural oils and is so small and handy to use. All you need to do is dampen you hair and apply about 5mls into your hair and steam it or wear a shower cap and place a hot towel over your head. After that you rinse it out and shampoo and condition your hair and you are done.

 

I always had this sandy color on my hair but after using the oil twice my hair is visibly darker and im loving it! Also to avoid tonging my hair and constantly exposing it to heat I am now using a mousse and a silk wrap to straighten my hair and boy do I love the results! I will keep you posted on the results of this new hair journey…. J

 

 

 

Say Something-A great big world ft Christina Aguilera

I first heard this song when I was having a very shit day at work and nothing on my playlist seemed to lift my spirits and put me back in the groove. So I decided to switch to the radio and find some inspiration there. There was some top 40 hits review going on so I was like ok let’s see where this goes and then they played this song. Let’s just say I’m a sucker romance and have always found solace in music when going through my trials so I wrote down the name of the song on my note pad.

Exactly a week later as I was walking into my room I saw the video. Absolutely blown away I was. That’s when I looked for the song, listened to the lyrics….. and shed a tear. How could a song reach out and touch my very core??? It was a nostalgic moment of being in a quadrant of loving someone but seeing the relationship slipping away. It brought back memories of fighting for something to the point where the more you fought the more you died a lil inside until it brought you to your knees; defeated. Memories of feeling like a caged animal seeking release, bound by your own fantasies of how amazing the relationship could be but not wanting to face the reality….

 

 

It is a therapeutic song, a healing song. If I had heard this song then it would have given me the strength to stretch my wings and take the leap faster than when I eventually did. Two thumbs (and big toes) up for this song. I’m sending the link to all my friends I hope they’ll love it as much as I do.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2U0Ivkn2Ds

Zonke Dikana-Feelings

Usually on my way to work I love listening to the radio. Its 20 minutes of infomercials, news, chatty dj’s and music. So today this particular radio station played a particular song that I somewhat liked. I obviously couldn’t make head or tail of the lyrics but I thought hmmmm this beat really sparks my afro jazzy side. So I got the name and went on youtube and all I can say is I was blown away!

 

Wow sung like a true woman who has finally been given the avenue to talk about how she really feels. It definitely fits my palate of jazz music and has officially made its way to number 1 on my playlist. I hope you will love it the same way I do

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwHHIMJUKSA

My birthday wishlist

Ok so as I look forward to a new year I'm also super excited about my birthday which is a few days after *silent scream*

2014 is definitely my year. I've been through alot this year and this coming year is the year to reap the fruits of my labour and tears. I feel God speaking to me and through me He will work.

So here goes friends and fam, i've made it all super easy for you ;)

1. Signorina by Salvatone Ferragamo

 

 

      2. Watch

      3. Nude/Black patent heels
      4. 2kg dumbells
      5. Ipod, for that perfect exercise experience
      6. Cheesecake :)
      7. Spa voucher
      8. Bible and daily planner
      9. The Autobiography of Malcom X
    10. 24hrs filled with non-stop love,laughs and fun

At the end of the day presence > presents always.....

Nelson Mandela from my eyes...

The world unanimously mourned the death of  a great man, Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela who passed away on the 5^th of December. When I first heard the news around midnight I had mixed emotions; sad in that the world had lost a great man and happy that finally he was at peace and that he had lived his life full circle.

 

However as the week progressed I was somewhat disturbed by the way he was idolized by the world over. His memorial and funeral services were star studded; Obama, Ban Ki Moon, Prince Charles, David Cameron, my amazing President, Kiketwe, Kenneth Kaunda, Joyce Banda, Oprah Winfrey, Richard Branson, Morgan Tsvangirai, Lionel Jospin, Alain Juppe the works! Then I asked myself who is this man who unified enemies? Who really is this man Rolihlahla who became a darling of the West and world over but was incarcerated for 27 years by them?

 

I personally applaud him for his resilience and determination in bringing about freedom and independence to the South Africans. It takes character to do that. I however do not think he is any saint. The Mandela who actively ran the streets of Johannesburg in protest, opened the first black law firm in South Africa is most definitely not the same Mandela who left the cells of Victor Vester Prison in 1990. He walked out a broken man, unwilling to fight the good fight but more concerned to fight for his own freedom. A man faced with the sad reality of a cheating and shrewd wife.  A man who had spent his entire prime behind bars, a man who had watched his life pass away day by day and was suddenly presented with a golden goose…

 

Do I have a problem with what he did? Hell no! If I was in the same shoes I wouldn’t have lasted that long. I would have sacrificed the land and wealth of my country for my own selfish and personal gain. What I do have a problem with is this ‘air head’ bubble that South Africans have when it comes to Madiba. Even Desmond Tutu confessed they made mistakes back then. So why doesn’t South Africa stand and regularize the wrong that was done? There can never be a separation between economic and political freedom. How do you elect members of parliament and lay down the strategic policies of a nation without economic muscle?

 

I understand the pedestal upon which the West put him on but South Africa as a whole please enlighten me on what he did besides ingeniously retain the wealth of the minority and hoodwink you into believing that you were truly free?

 

I will forever admire Madiba as a true icon and a unifier of all races but when you put dollars to cents he gave his country away for his freedom.

Why

Why do I feel so alone
When I am surrounded by 'love'
I feel the need to run away
To a place where I seem to belong


Why...why oh why
Do I feel oppressed and chained
Yet I weirdly cannot set myself free
Although i hold the keys in my hands


Why do I need to put up with constant critisism
Why do I need to constantly second guess myself
And doubt my own capabilities
When I am more than able


Why does it hurt so bad?
But feel so good?
I need to escape from all this torment

I miss you

This is something I wrote a few months ago and I just randomly bumped into it and decided to share. Enjoy :)


Your warm embrace
Late at night
And the low whispers and giggles
We make in bed

Your smile, your smile
You smile right through my heart
And confirm that I want to see that smile
For decades to come

Your words of comfort and consolation
Through all the bad, ugly and horrible
Your words of encouragement that I can
Do and be more than I am now
And your words of reassurance
That I am the queen of your heart

And lastly I miss the passion and ecstacy
That consumes me when you invade my space
And take over my everything
I miss you owning a lil of me
With every moment we have to ourselves

I miss and love you eternally

My firsts

Ok this post was triggered by my close friend and fellow bloggers post October Madness on what makes her happy. I nipped and tweaked mine a bit and focused on the more current stuff that have made my year so far. I have truly experienced a lot and here goes on my first ever experiences this year:-

·         My first new year’s outside Zimbabwe watching the sunrise with my love and great company

·         Smoked weed! J ( but really it was such a huge disappointment)

 

·         Went to my first lingerie and sex toy show, or what was supposed to be one

·         Lazy pants and aztech print! Ladies can I get an amen to those wonderful, comfortable pants and beautiful print that give us an amazing silhouette

·         Cutting my hair twice in a year

·         Fake lashes which I’m slowly getting addicted to

·         Underarm wax; no pain no gain people

·         Blush and lipstick craze

·         Green tea (I swear by it now)

·         My first seafood dish and it was amazeballs!

·         And most importantly I fell in love J (I know most of you are rolling your eyes but I’m with the most amazing man who has nurtured, inspired and cared for me in a way no other man has and I don’t want any other to…)

All in all it has been a wonderful year and I’ve met amazing people and created timeless memories. I cannot wait to see what more this year has for me.

Sometimes I wish my eyes could take pictures….

True Colours

So this song has been on my mind, on my playlist and has been speaking to me in a different way of late. There is so much fakeness in this world but only a few people know and get to love the real us. so lets show that a little more and spread the radiance we all possess to the rest of the world.....

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness, inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow


So sad eyes
Take courage now
Realize

When this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors, true colors

Cos there's a shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Beautiful, like a rainbow


Phil Collins~True Colours

A trip down bloomingdale lane

A recent argument I had with some male workmates triggered this post. The argument went a little something like this…. Men are more virile (in bed) in the 20’s and during their midlife crisis phase as compared to women who are late bloomers and enjoy sex in their thirties!

BOLLOCKS!!!!!!!!! I shouted from the highest mountain and made sure I had the final say (it’s a capricon thing, I’ll blame it on the stars!) however when I got home and began to think about it more, it actually made perfect sense.

Boys in their teens and early twenties will hump anything within 2km radius like literally! They will push volumes and go a step further and make it seem like an understatement. They however begin to reason more with their brain than their neither region and calm down.

On the other hand the female counterpart is being drilled from every corner about being virtuoes and upholding values so if she does, she will tread cautiously and will not seek to explore her sexuality fully. This is immensely catapulted by the fact that she is stuck in this whirlwind that her body has many imperfections; her boobs are too small, she’s not thin enough, she’s not light enough, the list is endless. However when she finally realizes this is all a fallacy she then sets out on this quest to make up for all the lost time. She is no longer the giver she is the receiver and she will demand it! She will not hesitate to move on and make sure her needs are met because ‘she loves the skin she is in’ and ‘knows her worth’

The man at this stage is now trying to make money, looking for a wife and family, trying to build and leave a legacy. Total mismatch! Then something happens to the man, his train veers off the rails at such exponential speed and right into the wilderness all one can do is stare with your mouth wide open. He is like an ostrich that had buried its head in the ground for so long protecting himself from the unknown, the future. When he finally gets the YOLO epiphany he’s like a dog in heat, a wild cat that now has the means and resources to pay his way through anything.

Anyway this is my two cents on the issue….lol

Self Worth

Bumped into this and i thought i should share......

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question:

'What kind of man are you looking for?'

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking,
'Do you really want to know?'

Reluctantly, he said, 'Yes.

She began to expound, '
As a woman in this day & age,
I am in a position to ask a man what can you do for me that I can't do for
myself?

I pay my own bills.
I take care of my household without the help of any man...
or woman for that matter.

I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought & stated, '
I am not referring to money.
I need something more.
I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.

She said, 'I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I
need conversation & mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man.

I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don't
need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe
for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don't need
a financial burden.

I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a
woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and
game-playing are not my idea of a strong man.

I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest and
provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.

I need someone  whom I can respect... In order to be submissive, I must
respect him.

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business.

I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy.

And by the way, I am not looking for him...He will find me.
He will recognize himself in me.
He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to
me.
God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't
help him self.

When she finished her spill, she looked at him.

He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, 'You are asking a
lot.
She replied, "I'm worth a lot".

Hope

I've had this song for quite a while but I just recently started listenin to the lyrics of this song and I hope you love them as much as I do...

I hope that the world stops raining
Stops turning it’s back on the young
See nobody here is blameless
I hope that we can fix all that we’ve done
I really hope Martin can’t see this
I hope that we still have a dream
I’m hoping that change isn’t hopeless,
I’m hoping to start it with me
I just hope I’m not the only one
Yeah I just hope I’m not the only one

I hope we start seeing forever
Instead of what we can gain in a day
I hope we start seeing each other
Cause don’t we all bleed the same?
I really hope someone can hear me
That a child doesn’t bear the weight of a gun
Hope I find the voice within me to scream at the top of my lungs
I just hope I’m not the only one
Yeah I just hope I’m not the only one

Louder I cannot hear you
How can things be better left unsaid?
Call me, call me a dreamer
But it seems that dreams are all that we’ve got left

I hope we still have a heartbeat
I hope we don’t turn to stone
At night when you turn the lights off
I hope you don’t cry alone
I hope we stop taking for granted
All of the land and all of the sea
I’m taking a chance on loving
I hope that you take it with me

I just hope I’m not the only one
I just hope I’m not the only one
I just hope I’m not the only one

Emeli Sande~Hope

You give to get

Life throws a lot of curve balls at us each and every day. Trials and jubilations are the order with each sun that rises and of late I have and am learning a new trait I naturally thought was second nature in everyone but surprisingly is quite rare…

The art of giving…..

I know that most guys are rolling their eyes or have already started flashing the ‘gold digger alert’ lights. But it’s a very simple philosophy you have to give to get; in every aspect of your life you have to be generous with yourself most importantly and then with others for you to truly say you live.

I have sadly noticed so many people shackle themselves all because they cannot do a simple thing…smile. It’s the most inexpensive thing but can make a difference to so many people.

 

A minute…. People feel that giving the next person a helping hand or an ear to listen is too much, but think about it what have you done that is soo productive that you could not spare a minute to help your neighbor?

 

Spoiling oneself…. If you earned it best believe you need to spend it! Come on a foot massage or a bottle of perfume never hurt anyone. Never be your own slave

 

Act of service... if you have a partner do exactly what you would want them to do for you and if they do care deeply about you, you will find that they too will return the favor.

I could go on and on and on but at the end of the day you always give to get, you always to love to fulfill your own personal yearning of love….

My new lover....

I know I've been missing from the game for too long but its just that I had bigger fish to fry. You see I met this guy a couple of years ago and at first I really didn't take him seriously. I always thought maybe next year.... I'll see.... I'm still young so why rush it?

Anyway I really got serious with him last year and when I got to know him better i realised how serious he was about me....us. He was like this is a once in a lifetime investment, you'll never find anyone like me and once I'm done with you you will never be the same. So I said why not give it a try. He was like nooooo! This is a trial, its either you in our you out. I weighed my options and decided to give it a go and that's when my life totally changed.

So the deal was every year we'd meet and deliberate extensively about our relationship. Everything about us had to be in sync. I had to literally know, live and breathe his world. The first time around it totally was an exhilarating experience. I was totally consumed by this foreign world filled with theorems and philosophies, numbers and Greeks symbols.

This time around was a totally different experience.....I do not even know where to begin. As I look back I think it was more of fatigue that got the best of me. I tried but the fact that I'd gone through it before took the spark away. What kept me going was the thirst of the things to come, a new Jerusalem he said. So I pushed and and gave it my all. He just sat there, emotionless as he picked my brain, tested my willpower, timed my speed and accuracy and dismissed me without a second glance! No glimmer of hope what so ever! sigh.....

I will wait patiently though, for he promised to come back, and coming back he will. I patiently await his arrival either as the white knight or the messenger of doom. we shall stand face to face, chin to chin, eye to eye as he spews the verdict of my inquest into the depths and beyond of his private life....
He promised me his last name and every benefit that comes with carrying it so I will wait in earnest til he returns with my fate......