To have or not to have.....

My connection with kids has always been natural. I absolutely love spending time with kids and can easily relate to them but I've been in a bit of a predicament of late, do i really want children??? Don't get me wrong i have absolutely no problem with kids and i believe they are the most fascinating and intriguing humans and i enjoy every minute spent with them, but is that a reason enough?

Mapunchu and I

I have been failing to answer that question in my life for a while. Why do people have children? I mean the world is overpopulated as it is and scientists have stated that the estimated amount of the worlds natural resources that the entire human race is using has exceeded the worlds renewable resources by 25%!

This just scared the light bulbs out of me, and it got me thinking why would i want to bring someone into a world that has no guarantee of being there in the future? From a biblical perspective the signs of the end times seem to be occurring from every corner and a special mention is Obama's Health Care Scheme and the RFID chip that will be implanted on the forehead or right arm of every individual in order to access free health care. But why will this chip be directly linked to ones bank's account? I wonder.... Another disturbing fact is that this chip has the possibility of being connected to ones motor nerves. An engineer, Dr Carl Sanders, highlighted the dangers of the implantation of these chips saying that they can easily modify a human being's behavior.

RFID chip

Lastly i think certain women use children to get what they want. Picture this; you are the 'other woman' in a relationship and you feel like your grip on this wealthy lad is loosening. So what do you do? Have a baby! That way you know that he will always be a part of your life and your kid for a very long time to come. Other women who have been unlucky in love and seem to have given up on the prospect of ever finding true love decide to transfer that love to another individual, a baby. While this may be commendable and can fill the void for a while such mothers will face a tough time letting go of their kids to enjoy a normal childhood.

With that in mind I could never bear the thought of giving life to someone i can never fully protect. This may sound selfish and egoistic but truth is i cannot stomach failure. i have been fortunate to be surrounded by kids and there is nothing as heart wrenching as not being able to protect or provide for a child and until i find more convincing reasons to be a mom, i think I'll steer clear from motherhood.....